i just realize that when your relationship with God isnt good, your relationship with your family friends, study, etc wont feel good,,,
based on my latest feelin,,, that my relationship with God isnt good,, its affected my other relationship...
1. last week we had a presentation, while everyone got A i just gettin B..i felt terrible,,, m i that stupid??
2. just now i called my dad, but i dont know that i felt like he dont wnna talk to me... and its very hard to contact him,, to make him answer my phone.. i felt sad, because usually i called him like everyday
3. i get offended easily by my friends lately... =(
i was wondering alot "Wht s wrong with me?" until i realize that ive been out of track, n i need to get back to my actual track,,,,
i realized that the problem im facing right now, r not a new problem.. that i experienced it many times.. but the i things that i forgotten was that when the problem came to me in the past... i have a good relationship with God and i didnt feel that the problem is a problem for me...
for example;
1. if i have a good relationship with God, i will have God remind me in every situation i am in.. when everyone get A and i get B.. God will remind me to be thankful in everysituation because everysituation is a lesson.. that from the failure i learn that i did somethin wrong so then i wont repeat the same mistake in the future.. in fact B isnt a failure rigt,,, B is a pass,,,pass is better than failure,, n lesson and experience is also better than an A....
2. when happen to me that my dad not in the mood to talk to me,, if i have a good communication with God, God will remind me that everyone has their own problem.. so instead of condemning them, why dont we just pray for them, be an encouragement for them, be a bless for them??
3. when i get offended by my friend God will remind me that it s a lesson for me to be learn to be more patient. being patient is the a good thing to be use in every situation.. business situation, competition situatiion, etc..
4. when i felt afar from God, God will remind me that in every problem and situation that God let us in, He has His purpose behind it.. n God's plan is always beautiful.....
there is another situation that when i am afar from God i am still in a good condition,, in study, family or friend,,
but suddenly i realized that at that time, eventhough my grade is good,, my relationship with my family and friends s going well..
but, didnt i realize that there is somethin wrong deep inside my heart,,
the feelin of emptiness, the feelin that i have somethin missing, the feelin of never completed that wht ive been achieved, always not enough for me... n i end up with seeking n seeking it until i dont know wht direction i headin to,,that if i dont reach that goals,, m no special..
friends, we r special,, in God's eyes.... thats why He created us and this universe... =)...
so.....yes, we need God.....
